Waiting on God…
Sometimes, I’m really too anxious for my own good.
I let my emotions get the best of me and that often results in me taking on much more than I can bear.
It allows me to think about Jesus in a sense though.
Too often, I feel that we pray and while we talk to Jesus and in His word, He says to trust in Him, but we feel that we have to monitor ourselves like Jesus, our Brother, the One who died on the cross for our sins, the one who rose on the third day, the one who sent us out with the Great Comission, the one who performed countless miracles and fulfilled numerous prophecies will get overwhelmed. It’s amazing. This week I am challenged to learn to not just think of prayer as this sacred time where God will enlighten me (that’s just an added bonus). But I am also learning that sometimes, my prayer time consists of me just talking to God and expressing my thoughts, actions, and desires for my life. It’s not hard once you learn to stop being anxious and wait on God. It’s not easy either, but it does become a lot easier.
On another note, I am writing this journal within hours of me attending Aquire the Fire, a 27 hour experience of praise, worship, and intense face to face time with the One True Heavenly Father. I’m excited obviously, but speaking of waiting on God. My biggest prayer is that I go to this event and not just receive something and come back to campus for like a week. No my one true desire is to come back from this weekend a changed daughter of the Most High.
I want people to notice the change. I want people to come up to me and ask, “Hey, what’s going on with you lately?” just so I can respond “Jesus.” and walk away. Well, maybe that seems a bit dramatic, but needless to say I WANT TRANSFORMATION in my life. I feel that God brought me to Bethel for so much more than education. He brought me here for so much more than the awesome community and the amazing staff and faculty. I like to think that God brought me here to ultimately edify His name all the more and make myself accountable. With help from some serious prayer time, ATF, and other small things, I believe that can happen.
Ultimately, this is what is important.